January 20, 2006

Our cycling, jogging and hula hooping

The weather has been keeping girl and me from going to ECP to cycle and going out to do night-jogging. We ended up either eating more (e.g. New Zealand Natural at Parkway Parade) or staying home to watch more tv, snacking on bak kwa and choco, or joining my sister's daily routine of doing the hula hoop.

xxx

Gloss your way through this

I heard from girl about how she looks so despondent in school nowadays. And how she told her that she's been crying so much, and waking up feeling like a tap that wasn't turned off properly. Erm, that metaphor was mine. hee

I had wanted to call her sometime at night, to just talk. After all, I was the oldest and referred to as da jie da by her in the SPG group. But, ashamed, I didn't get down to that. My resolution of last year - stop procrastinating - didn't really get carried to full term.

I guess what I want to say and have to say boils down to my believing that a relationship should be the extra icing on top of the cake; something that should add value and overall happiness to life, and not to undermine the other simple pleasures of living.

If the current me was the current her, I would show the guy the exit out of my life. The BIG, NEON GREEN E-X-I-T. I feel too old and wasted to allow a man, who is not ready to share his life and share mine in a harmonious way, to dig a tunnel for my tears due to him. On that note, I disallow a woman (ok, OR girl) to do that too. Sheer waste of time that could have been spent smelling the flowers.

But, because I'm not her, I try to rest my case as simply and as early as I can. Living is about first, crying, then growing to find the reasons to smile about before the end kicks in. And that's when everyone else around you cries for the loss of you, hopefully. Eh?

If there are toads to be kissed before you can find a prince, wear your favourite lip-gloss.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:45